Steph Upon A Potty • This was originally typed irrelevantly into an e-mail to my executive director at CFI. Probably better to put it here instead.

This was originally typed irrelevantly into an e-mail to my executive director at CFI. Probably better to put it here instead.

Oh shit I just realized I have to finish that research paper from last semester. Balls. BALLS I have so much crap to do and no money to make it work! New York City is so frustrating and expensive and being in school doesn’t make it any easier. I never used to worry about what would happen to me after I graduated, but now I’m scared. I need a stable job. Freelance modeling just isn’t cuttin’ it anymore. I hate not knowing if I’m going to have to starve for a month or not in order to pay my rent. Maybe I should be a freeloader and surf my friends’ couches and learn to ignore my conscience so I don’t feel bad for taking up their space. I just want to be comfortable and care-free. Why is it so hard to live???